wuhhuu, it has been 720 hours that i haven't take a look my maisepes.
hakk,,well exam dowh..ta sempat nk bkk. ;p
okie, yesterday i did. yah,sronok dpt chatting wif maisepes frens AGAIN ;p.
i checked the list of new frens dat need my approval,more den 10 peoples r list down.
one of them left some text. "dear.! still remember me ?".
"huh.! whos she ?" i talk myself.
n den, i find out dat this peep is my old acquaintance.
we're lost contact distance ago. formerly, she had crush on me..
the way she talked,the way she attend me..she showed but doesn't tell, i noe.
i silent myself.
till she had a new boifren.
since dat, she always talked bout her beloved one,praised him to me.
okie, i am jealoused!!. n sudden i thought,perhaps i do liked her.
BUT, on the tyme where she greatfully talked bout him,
i can felt that her talked was fake.her feeling towards dat boy was also fake.
they frequently arguing each other ( she told ) while frequently told dat she lorve him.
what for ekceli ? told me bout her fellings ? to ME ? why not to ur other frens ? ; or dis all bout made me jealous ?.
one day..she's gone in sudden without left a single text.
i waited her.
i gave much massage but got nothing in replied, till now.!
"okie, perhaps i should forget bout her" i thought.
then, i tried avoid texting to her n get rid her off my mind.
yea, its worked, plus i've forgotten her name ( haa, melampaw killer ;D ).
but, yesterday she showed up.
uhmmm, why she still seeking fer me whereas she's the one who left me ? ( o.O )
as fer Cha and Hunky ( fiction names ) , i wish dat i can left u guys 'peaceful'.
i tried but failed. u guys keep visualize in my head.
Cha such a kind hearted person n always looked perfect into my eyes.
i did much;a lot of things to impressed him, bcoz i tersangatlah care bout him.
he such a good fren indeed.
*u noe Cha, when i were informed dat u involved in xcident..i was extremely shocked n really anxious bout ur safety. it was a rainy day, so i thought nonsense. on dat tyme, i looked like a crazy walking boy with gloomy face. sampaikn ade sorang makcik ni tegor i n said "knape nie dik ? jalan mcm tade arah tujuan je, ape hal ? " urghh,she called me adik.geli je dengar. ;p
i silent. i kept thinking bout u untill almost burst into tears, but thank God ur fren gave me a text told dat u just in fine n nothing worst happened.*
oo God, why its too difficult to let go u from wat im feel.
my fren, Arez has told me " alaa, lupekan die je..die takan untuk kaw." uhmm, maybe Arez is right. sampai bile pon i takan get closer to u. :(
but, i crush on u bcoz of ur character ( the good one )
the look ? uhmm.. sumpah, dulu u not really have good looking. ( but by now, u do have. wink wink ) .i salu ckp kt u dat i syg u, i really mean it.
Hunky is way too good compare with me. i noe dat im not deserve to be with Hunky.
the look, the knowledge, the sincererity, the honesty just too good. mcm star dengan fungi ( hoo, try to compare their characteristics, way too different isn't ? ).
furthermore, u oledy have thousand of boifrens n scandals ( u admit it ).
same to u, Hunky, i crush on u at perst bcoz of ur sincererity,honesty, n kindness. how bout the look ? we never meet yet n all ur potos just not really show the real u ( u noe wat i mean n u sendiri yg ckp mcm uh ). ekceli, i don't really care bout how ur look is. yang penting i syg kt u. i told u before kn ? :/
uhmmm, wat can i do further..ur actions giving me a think dat i don't really fit fer u.
even i nver hear it from ur own mouth.
i wish dat i can spit out my words towards u, tapi i tatot rejection. really! huu ;(
* i've been rejected by a peep once, dat make me regret of my words ( wrong timing ). so, perhaps dis made me trauma..uhmmm :/ *
its okie fer me to hold a lil bit prickness, kowt :(
lagipon i hold ur words "love. dis matter should flow like a wind. let it happen naturally".
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